If anything, my passion is dwindling - although there is the distinct possibility that it is being sucked out of me, but I'll explore that another day. I can't seem to muster much enthusiasm for any activity at the moment. I am dragging myself through the motions of daily life, faking it when required. I just can't be arsed about anything right now.
And speaking of arsed:
There just isn't enough frivolity or silliness in my life right now. It's not that everything is serious or dire, but there isn't any sizzle either. What happened to my 'happy go lucky' attitude? When did I stop singing? Where did I put my weird?
I perked up a bit later when we strolled through a salvage shop filled with life-sized statues of pirates, Indians, celebrities and animals. I determined I would indulge myself with the purchase of any weird and useless item that caught my fancy. An Egyptian sarcophagus? A giant shark head to plant in the front yard? A zulu midget holding a menu board, perhaps?
Unfortunately, I was disappointed that all the seemingly cool old statues, were merely plastic replicas. Although, I was quite attracted to the life-sized animatronic tyrannosaurus rex, I decided that my self-indulgent wallowing was not quite worth $25,000. However, $895 for Barak Obama seemed a bargain...but I'd hate to take him away from his current position.
6 comments:
Here's an interesting fact...I'm in the exact same place...I've lost my weird, my "who gives a fuck," and my "did he really just do that?" I know the feeling of feeling like your "essence" is gone, been sucked out of you and all the things you once thought you could or want to do are mere pipe dreams.
Everyone has a purpose in life and some of us never know what that is. You might touch a life everyday in your postings and you have no idea the impact you have made to change someone’s life for the better. Be happy for your loving husband and all of your loving friends, the passion can be them for all you know. Life is too short my friend to not be happy!! ~ Tina
Awww, it pains me to read those words coming from you, Audra. To me, you've lived a very blessed life. You've traveled, had some once in a lifetime adventures, and you've met some incredible people along the way, have you not? You've lived a life most people can only 'hope' to live in their golden years. Could it be you're bored? Maybe going through a little mid-life thingy? I can honestly say you are the most unique individual I have ever known and you have touched my life. I agree with Tina. xoxo
I always like to quote Cher in circumstances like this: "Snap out of it!"
You have not lost your muchness, even though it seems like you were muchier in the past. You just need to edjust to the switch from youthful to middle age hormones.
I love you and think you are the most interesting woman alive.
Mommalinda
Awww.....that sucks. My comments arent worthy of publication??
Of course they are Heidi! I just forget to manage my blog these days. One of many activities that falls away to the pressures of work.
Thanks for your lovely words!
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